Im on testosterone

Hey all! Sorry about the long wait for a new post!

Alot has been going down, i got a new job, i quit my old one but im back there shortly, and IM ON T!

S o first one i quit my job at the clinic because the drama, working hard and alot of hours for such crappy pay, and because i needed something new and rewarding. I now work at Target starting at 11 dollars three or four dollars more than my last job, but i am also back at my old job working extra shifts there bc someone quit and they called me in need. it kinda made me feel good. So im currently working two jobs and not enjoying it so much because im tired. but oh well more money right.

I am on Testosterone! I started 11/6/17 i do my shot every monday and no i havent noticed any new changes besides zits. ill let yall know when i do.


So sorry for such a short update, i work on longer ones soon.


Bye yall



Hello from the other side?

Hey all!

So I am researching some surgeons and i think i found a few in Texas, some in Florida, and a few in north Carolina. I’m extremely interested in the Keyhole surgery. I’ve seen some results from that surgery and i think it would work for my chest size and what not.  I even messaged one of the Doctors about it hoping for a reply soon.

Today has been a long and interesting day. Working was harsh everyone was grumpy. Though i did reach my step goal on my fitbit. Which is awesome. I should be winning one of my challenges!

So that was my day.



Hey all!

So i started a facebook page for myself and to support others! I’ve noticed on Gofundme there are A LOT of people trying to save up and get the surgeries or treatment and i wanted a page to help those get more attention. I know how hard it is to save money specially when you dont have a family that supports it. So go check it out.


Hit like and share Please!

Today has been a rather short day. i didn’t have to work to long so i started my first session of work outs on fit-star. my heart-rate went up to 150 which is amazing because i dont think ill be able to go for my job today with it almost raining or going to rain. I am working hard to losing my weight. I want to go down to 150 then start lifting weights and working on my chest and abs.

Any suggests on work outs? I have a ab wheel which is pretty damn amazing btw.


So until next time good night.

Been awhile

Hey all!

It’s been a few weeks now and alot has happened!

So i started therapy, had my first session on Friday and it was just a get to know you session but it went great. Really looking forward to working on my new few steps on this journey. As well i have started working out. I am hoping to lose some weight then start working on building some muscle and working on my abs and chest. I want to be ready for when i have the all clear to do my surgery. I have found a great surgeon in Florida, i’m very interested in the keyhole surgery. I’ve heard its great with very light scarring. I am hoping and crossing my fingers that i’m a good fit for that surgery.

Also i have set up a gofundme account for my top surgery here is the link.

Click to Donate Now!

Go please even the smallest amount will help me out.


Thanks again for following my journey!



So today is heavy. I’ve made a lot of mistakes in the past few years that are hard to fix, hard to swallow for me. Before i fully accepted who i am and what i was i lied A LOT and now all those lies are coming due for me. My heart knows and my brain knows but they are fighting over what should be done and who i should let go. People are hurt because of me and what i have done. Some were able to accept things fast but others the one that i care for more than even myself. I know i have a lot to make up for and i’m going to work on a lot of things for myself as well. She’s a priority. she comes first no matter what. I swear this to her and to myself. I want to make things better.

So soon i’m going to be saving to move to Arizona, I’m also going to be talking to a therapist about everything. Someone that doesn’t know me personally but will be able to help me figure things out. I’m going to be planning my move soon as well. Any advice on doctors in Houston or Arizona Please let me know. i’d love to know whose best and what not.


Thanks for listening.


I am Jacob


Today is the day i have decided to finally begin searching for ways to began the change. I’ve been looking for places, states, cities to go to. I know my family will never accept this, but i have friends and a partner to rely on and who support me. If my family never supported me i would be fine. i would learn to rely on myself and only my self. I will find a way to make me who i am, allow myself to truly learn to love myself but also learn to love others.

Today is March 13th the day i finally admitted to myself and it makes me feel strong and worthy of living. i’m ready to start my life and leave this one behind. Not leave everyone behind just this body the way it is, is ready to go. I’m ready to start my journey.

I will be moving to Arizona soon, i found a few doctors that seem good to start with. I’m hoping to move in July or August, just gotta get the balls to pack and leave. I probably won’t let my parents know until i’m already gone. they dont pay for my stuff anymore so they can’t hold me back for that. I’m afraid if i stay and tell them in person they wont accepted it, they would try and talk me out of everything. But i’m not going to be truly happy until i start until i know its going to truly happen.


Today is the day i Start to believe its happening.





It’s Saturday

Hey guys it’s Saturday and I’m being a little lazy. I have been pretty busy over the last few weeks since my last post. A lot has happened as well. I’m now a promoter for BrixBennet so go and check them out and use my code JAKE10. They have an amazing site and new shirts and more. They help a lot with transgender youth. I wanted to be apart of something amazing and help them raise money for transgender youth. So please go and check them out.

I also got an email from my surgeons office and they are going to hold August 2 for me so I can pay the deposit at my next paycheck. Go and donate to my youcaring fundraiser if you can or just share it as much as you can. I also have new merch on inktale I’ll add the link at the end of the post. Please remember all proceeds go towards my surgery fund.

Other than that I started school and I’m working early in the morning so I get tired when I get home. Working 4-12:30 or 4-9:30. Am this is all in the early early morning. So I’m sorry I’m exhausted by one. I’m trying to stay as active as possible and keep everyone as updated as possible.

I love y’all a lot you keep me going.

Til next time


Inktale store:



Today starts my unplanned vacation from work. It’s kinda perfect though so I can start school and get ahead on my online class. So it’s perfect or that’s how we are looking at it! Gotta stay positive right?

Heads up I put a new YouTube video up about my two month on t update. Go and check it out here’s the link.

YouTube video

Also I’ll be posting about my new surgery date in the next few hours as well. I’ll post the link in a new blog post soon!


Morning and top surgery

Good morning! I hope everyone had a good night sleep. I know my blogs have been pretty short but I will try and make them longer.

So my top surgery will now be in August to allow me to save more money and be able to pay it have more. I want to try and avoid getting a loan out or doing care credit as much as possible. I will be putting my deposit down within the next week or so. I don’t know what day in August yet since the surgeon hasn’t given his office the schedule yet. So I’m learning to be patient as much as possible. Please remember you can donate to my surgery fund or buy a shirt at my merch store. I’ll put the links below. Thank you all for being so supportive it means a lot to me!

Please help out however possible.

Merch Store

Surgery fund

Outback and shaving

Hey y’all! Good evening!

Right now I’m waiting for a table with my girlfriend and roommate at outback! 30 minute wait…

But onto sad news I had to unfortunately shave my mustache off since I’m not fully out at work or with family. I was proud of that light little mustache too. 😢😢😢 but one day I’ll grow it out with a full bread I hope. Send me positive vibes please!!

Have a good night!

Good morning

Good morning everyone!

I want to try and blog more so I got the app on my phone. ATM I’m sitting and listening to drama which is always fun! I’ve been dreaming of top surgery. I’ve had two dreams of top surgery, the first one my whole family was supportive and the top surgery came out amazing!! The second dream was only my mom and dad were supportive but the top surgery still came out good too.

So the conclusion of bob dreams for me is I’ll get top surgery and someone will be supportive. So I love dreams how about you?