Shadow

Do you ever find yourself being a shadow for a younger sibling? I do, quite often actually. I was actually just told that i wasn’t invite persay to an afterparty. what i mean by that is that I was invited by the bride and groom but my own grandfather didn’t care if i showed up. He did care and convince my younger sibling to show. Because he wants to brag and show her off to everyone that I will be there. I felt hurt by this. The person that told me said that he wants to brag about her going to school and her future choices. I was doubly hurt by this because i already have a certificate from school and i’m going back for another in business than on to my associates degree. I’m not the best in school, i have a learning disability that makes it a lot harder for me to focus and learn, where my sister is pretty book smart. She doesn’t really have to study she just always passes her classes without much effort. Where if i don’t study, i fail the class badly. I made all A’s in my first semester of college, then this last semester i made 1 A, 2 B’s and 1 C. I did pretty good and was pretty proud of myself. But to learn that my Grandfather only ever wants to brag about my Sister, who i love dearly but is only ever talking 1-2 classes at a time when i took 3-4 to finish on time. I feel cheated, hurt, and beyond furious that she is treasured and bragged on more when we should both be encouraged to keep going. To keep working hard. To never give up. I am saddened but i want to work harder for myself and my future family and future goals to show everyone that they should have cherished me as well. I have a bright future even if they do not care. I will keep going and keep learning to better myself and to complete what my dreams are. Then when they do want to try and brag about me i will tell them no because you weren’t there to care enough when i was at the bottom. When i wanted you to care you didn’t.